woah the first post unrelated to everything else in this blog.
on school- i love philadelphia university. im making new friends as well as enemies but naturally that happens everywhere i tend to go with my over-energetic sometimes rude personality. my classes are going good, but i had to drop my math class due to the fact i had no idea what she was saying at any point during the entire class. textiles is by far one of my best classes. lab is my favorite, my lab professor is a complete trip. writing is teaching me to go against everything i ever learned in high school. using the word “i” in essays? woah… not okay. economics is … well the same as last year except i already understand it all and therefore i somehow believe that this class is optional… i wish.
home- i miss home a great deal. i miss driving. i miss my friends. and somehow i am starting to miss my family a lot more than i thought i ever would. i miss university of delaware but im trying to leave that as far behind as possible. somehow it manages to make its way back into my life every time im home. i cannot deny that i still miss the past. but i am unsure of what i want from the past at this point in my life if anyone even understands the direction im coming from.
boys- the boys here suck. i thought maybe they would be better than the boys at home but no, infact i might go as far as to say they are worse here. i miss being in a stable relationship but that just isnt where god sees me right now i guess. you know being stable and all. i miss the last serious relationship because we still talk and shit still happens and i guess i trick myself into believing that it can all be good again when i know he is still talking to other people regardless. the facts that he doesnt share with these people. like us having sex etc sort of make me feel like a used condom if you catch my drift. tossed to the street when hes done with me. i dont get invited out though the invitation to come here is always open. is it wrong of me to expect something? i presume so.